Over the several years that I’ve walked with God, I’ve experienced Him in so many ways.
I’ve become a bawling ball of mush on the floor during powerful moments of corporate worship. I’ve felt the Holy Spirit envelope me in a giant invisible but very tangible hug. I’ve had moments when my jaw has dropped in shock as a scripture has come alive and “spoken to my exact situation”. I’ve had innumerable experiences of God that are stories worth telling.
Recently, I’ve been deeply longing to experience God in some way that’s felt “big”. I’ve been pining for an “experience”. But today, as I sat and listened to the quiet of both my babies napping at the same time (which is rare); I felt a deep peace. I realized that right there in the room with me was “The One Who Sees Me”.
While we often selfishly crave big moments with God, we easily miss that He’s constantly with us in the tiny, insignificant ones, too.
I realized how awesome and precious it is that He sees me when my heart breaks trying to put my teething son to bed. He sees me when I rejoice that my baby girl is finishing her entire bowl of food. He sees me when I’ve hardly slept at night and feel like a shell of a person in the morning. He sees me when I’m powering through my list of to-dos each day trying to conquer everything. He sees me when I don’t feel enough to manage what’s on my plate. He sees me in all those moments that will never be worth telling stories about.
He sees me.
He sees you too. He is God when you feel Him and He’s God when you don’t. He’s still on the throne even when you’re off the platform and backstage doing boring “unseen” work. He is just as proud of you when you’re slaying it as He is when you’re staying in. He loves your game face in public as much as He does your worn-out, tired, unkempt face in private.
You’re never invisible to the One who sees you.
Genesis 16 tells us about how Hagar felt lonely, rejected, tired, and fed up in the scorching desert sun when she was running away from Abraham and Sarah. But God met her in that place of nothingness to remind her that He had plans for her. That’s when she said this (verse 13): “You are the God who sees me… I have now seen the One who sees me.”
My prayer for you today is that you see the One who sees you.